The Agony and Ecstasy of Doors: a #haibun…#haiku #poetry

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Rome. Arch of Janus in the Foro Boario. Facade towards the Tevere river. Through the arch, the porch of the church of Saint George in Velabro is seen. By No machine-readable author provided. MM assumed (based on copyright claims). [Public domain], via Wikimedia Commons

 

Who could imagine that a locked, white-paneled double-door would offer freedom? I tremble before it, a pubescent boy home from 7th grade. I place my key in the keyhole, turn the lock, open the door. Any moment I’ll see Mom. Her glassy eye and lazy sneer will greet me. Her slurred voice will confirm the sinking feeling that arose the moment these doors came into view. Who knew opening the doors to home would enslave?

sudden cold

echo of the thump

of doors closing

Who could imagine that an open front door would enslave? I walk through it to the courtyard beyond. Mira approaches from the pathway between condo buildings. She looks startled as she sees me. I offer her my overdue apology. She wanted help with our newborn son; I wanted down-time from work, to spend in a rocking chair and a new novel. We make up for not the first, and certainly not the last, time, and return home. Who knew closing a door to home would liberate?

full moon

soft click of a deadbolt

scarcely heard

 

 

for Poets United–midweek motif (January 3, 2018)–doorway(s)

UPDATE: for dVerse Poets’ Tuesday Poetics (June 26, 2018) — Opposites Attract, Or Do They? (pubtended by lillian)

 

 

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33 responses to “The Agony and Ecstasy of Doors: a #haibun…#haiku #poetry”

  1. Sherry Blue Sky Avatar

    Two such very different doors. Your first one reminded me of entering the house after school to the smell of stale cigarettes and booze. Sigh.

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    1. Frank J. Tassone Avatar

      Indeed, Sherry! Experiences I, too,?remember all too well. 😢 Thanks for reading, and sharing!

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  2. kanzensakura Avatar

    Such a sad door. A most excellent write. Some doors were never meant to be opened. This makes me grateful for my parents. We were poor but we were happy.

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    1. Frank J. Tassone Avatar

      My relationship with my parents was…complicated. It makes for great poetry–the joyful and sorrowful kind! Thanks, Toni!

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  3. Susan Avatar
    Susan

    Your title is stark and true. Always in that instant outside the door, the reality of the inside visits. I’ve experienced both! It’s wonderful that those double doors ultimately open to liberation.

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    1. Frank J. Tassone Avatar

      Indeed! Thanks, Susan!

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  4. Sumana Roy Avatar

    Ha…Humans are born to soar on the wings of agony and ecstasy. Well put.

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  5. Rosemary Nissen-Wade Avatar
    Rosemary Nissen-Wade

    Intriguing … and sad. Makes me hope it’s fiction. But it rings true.

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    1. Frank J. Tassone Avatar

      Would that it were fiction, Rosemary. But such is life, that it’s memory…Thanks for reading!

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  6. merrildsmith Avatar

    So well done. You capture so much here–the passage of time, as well as the doors that open to sorrow or joy.
    (Weird synchronicity thing that I just wrote about doors opening and closing, too.) 🙂

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    1. Frank J. Tassone Avatar

      Thanks, Merril! I loved your piece, btw!

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      1. merrildsmith Avatar

        Thank you so much, Frank!

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  7. Trådløs Avatar

    Oh heck. That first one is heart-wrenching. Feelings well captured

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  8. hypercryptical Avatar
    hypercryptical

    How sad the dread of going home Frank, the door opening to what you knew lay beyond.
    I am glad those very same days later opened to freedom.
    Kind regards
    Anna :o]

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    1. Frank J. Tassone Avatar

      More like years later, Anna. 😆 Thanks for reading!

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  9. Grace Avatar

    Makes a great metaphor – opening and closing doors ~ They speak volumes of our relationship with others and with life itself ~ Love the sounds in your 2 haiku ~

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    1. Frank J. Tassone Avatar

      Thanks, Grace! 🙂

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  10. lillian Avatar

    Thank you for posting Frank. The agony and the ecstasy — the juxtapositioning of doors that lead into a home: one dysfunctional, dreaded at the end of the school day. I’m reading into it here, but perhaps an alcoholic parent…children who must become the adults when their parents are in the throes of alcoholism or some addiction. They move from their lively day at school with chatter and books and learning and colors of the outside world and bright clothing and energy….to inside the home where others have warmth, and but children of alcoholics only have uncertainty and dread. They feel like the backside of a couch that has been shredded by a cat’s claws.
    And then the adult door….so many years later…that when opened, literally, leads to a life where one can breathe and trust and touch a baby’s soft skin and see a mother rock and cherish and teach that child of unconditional love.
    I don’t know if this is or was your situation…..but it is the truth for many children of alcoholics. May they all find a door that opens to freedom within and with relationships.

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    1. Frank J. Tassone Avatar

      Your intuition and poetic insight serve you well, lillian! You illustrate my history–on both counts–perfectly. Thank you for your compassionate read! 🙂

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  11. Jo Avatar

    You’ve done an amazing job with the opposites – walking through the door to what sounds like an abusive, alcoholic parent and another door to a loving relationship and a newborn son.

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    1. Frank J. Tassone Avatar

      Thanks, Jo! 🙂

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  12. Frank Hubeny Avatar

    Good question: “Who knew opening the doors to home would enslave?”

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  13. rothpoetry Avatar

    Avery interesting use of doors for contrast! Doors are always a mystery…never knowing what to expect when opened! Well done!
    Dwight

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  14. Vandana Sharma Avatar

    hmmm, which one to choose…..

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  15. Björn Rudberg (brudberg) Avatar

    Doors can mean so much… the first door of coming home and have to deal with booze is so sad for a young boy.

    Love the comfort you got after making out.

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  16. Vivian Zems Avatar

    It’s strange how the simple act of opening a door can have positive or negative connotations. This is perfectly done!

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  17. jazzytower Avatar

    Wow, Frank! Quite the take away from this one. Different lives, right. Love the use of doors in these. A nice write.

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  18. Lona Gynt Avatar

    Thank God for the hope of open doors. Thanks Frank.

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