Our first conversation, Lynn

It’s Friday, July 18th. We start to say grace when my phone rings. Without looking, I know it’s you. My dish of penne remains in the microwave as I see your name on the incoming call.

You ask about the weather, my writing, and work. I answer what I can. And savor the soft, resigned tone that betrays a hint of sadness, along with that intellectual articulation. You laugh as I expound on the phrase “empty suits.”

I learn that I have two uncles and two cousins living in Auburn, NY. One is a poet seeking first publication. You tell me you’re alone. You pursued theater, making it to off-off-Broadway, where you performed in at least one shuttered play a year. When you realized you’d peaked, you left theater to pursue baking. You lived in New York City (10 years), Burlington, Vermont (6 years), Sarasota and other locales in Florida (14 years) and Asheville, North Carolina (7 years).

Somehow, the years of your career or residencies don’t add up.

But I discover where my love of poetry, creative writing, animals and movies comes from, don’t I? You took up drawing and painting in your fifties. A Black Bear yearling enthralled you.

We agree to speak again; the ball is in my court. I savor the unexpected sense of wholeness after I hang up.

Before an inexplicable sorrow arises to replace it.

cool evening
you set your phone down
alone

first published in Image Curve, February 7, 2019

for dVerse Poets’ OLN #237 (Pubtended by Grace)

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21 responses to “Our first conversation, Lynn”

  1. Grace Avatar

    Well that is a good start and certainly can bring more wholeness and connections.

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    1. Frank J. Tassone Avatar

      Thanks, Grace! 🙂

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  2. msjadeli Avatar

    I don’t want to pry, but it sounds like this is your mother? A world between the spaces…

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    1. Frank J. Tassone Avatar

      Birth mother. As to a world between the spaces, indeed! Thanks!

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      1. msjadeli Avatar

        You are very welcome.

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  3. petrujviljoen Avatar

    That brought on a gulp!

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  4. Frank Hubeny Avatar

    I like that feeling when it comes for no apparent reason after talking to someone: “unexpected sense of wholeness after I hang up”

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    1. Frank J. Tassone Avatar

      Thanks, Frank! 🙂

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  5. merrildsmith Avatar

    It sounds like a conversation with a birth or estranged parent. This is so poignant: “I savor the unexpected sense of wholeness after I hang up.

    Before an inexplicable sorrow arises to replace it.”

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  6. Mish Avatar

    I can only imagine the mixed emotion involved in a journey such as this….the sorrow and the sense of wholeness. I suppose one would need to feel both in order to move forward.

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    1. Frank J. Tassone Avatar

      Thanks, Mish! 🙂

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  7. Björn Rudberg (brudberg) Avatar

    This one made me wonder so much…. the caller ID told me that you had the phone number in your book, and yet it seems like you haven’t talked in ages. Who it was I cannot tell… but you open up so many questions.

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  8. rothpoetry Avatar

    Well done Frank. A very thought provoking poem of relationship and the emotions brought forth! Aloneness is a very hard thing!!

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    1. Frank J. Tassone Avatar

      Indeed, Roth–especially when it is imposed, not chosen. Thanks! 🙂

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  9. sanaarizvi Avatar
    sanaarizvi

    Oh gosh this tugs very strongly at my heart and I knew the answer even before I read ms jade’s comment. Beautifully poignant. ❤️

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    1. Frank J. Tassone Avatar

      Thank you, Sanaa! 😀

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  10. Glenn Buttkus Avatar
    Glenn Buttkus

    Life writes excellent scenarios. Bang on haibun. I feel your pain. I was 22 when I found out that my mother’s first husband was not my father; just the first of three stepfathers.

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    1. Frank J. Tassone Avatar

      Thank you, Glenn! 😀

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  11. memadtwo Avatar

    The world that was once invisible is now revealed…and what to make of it? How to place ourselves now? (K)

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